Saturday, November 29, 2008
well.. i knew it.. i knew this would happen!!! juz when i am so broke, why is this happening??? i knew i shouldn't have put the envelope of money on her table.. i should have paz 2 her personally.. den all this wun even happen and i dun haf to come out with extra money lor... who is the one?? the dishonest one?? who would have known that i will be leaving adeline with money?? who?? i didn't tell anyone except adeline herself.. who has been to adeline's table between 1730H to 0030H yesterday?? we haf left stuff like mobile phone, wallet, mp3, camera, etc. unattended on the table before and is for a day or two.. and nothing has happen!!! and juz this once, when i have wrapped it up so well that it will not even show that is money inside.. and i clip it up with all the locations feedback forms leh.. how can the envelop of money gone missing.. shouldn't have happen... but adeline can be quite muddle-headed at times.. did she dropped it when she took the locations feedback forms?? did she misplaced it?? awae, i am glad that poh choo is going back to the office now and will be taking a look at adeline's table juz in case she reali has misplaced the envelop.. if not i have to replace the 125 leh.. money again!!! sighhhh....was actuali in a oki mood yesterday before adeline called.. went office to do up some paper work for IT6.. next week will be the last week of shoot.. want to make sure all necessary stuff are done.. but realised that alot of things need to be change.. the tow truck, the taxi and the dog.. so many last minute changes.. i dun like it!!! i like my work to be done well.. i want a good reputation as a LR.. i enjoy working with rajen, poh choo, pauline and everyone else in the office.. i want to do more projects with them.. though i know poh choo mite find me demanding and troublesome at times.. hahaha... or is it all the time... well.. though she mite be at time nasty with her words but she is actually a very nice person to work with.. Thanks Poh Choo for tolerating me all this while..it has been a long long time since my last bbq.. maybe coz' i am scared of fire or maybe coz' i dun reali eat when at bbq or maybe there r juz no bbq for me to attend.. well.... thanks to jamie and mom.. i got to go for a bbq session yesterday after such a tremendous long period of time... i enjoyed myself.. we didn't do much.. i ate very little though.. a small bowl of curry cooked by jamie's mom and a very small portion of pineapple fried rice.. one fish ball.. one small taiwan sausage.. and 6 pieces of mini-marshmallow.. hee.. and i am full.. dun haf very good appetite lately.. maybe my mind has been teeling me that i am on a diet.. hahahaha... well.. i told ms. kee that i will definitely slim down before my trip to taiwan... i think i have done so.. not by wat i wanted ~ 10kg.. but definitely i have shed off at least 1kg in 2 weeks.. actuali i didn't weigh myself for quite awhile oredi.. but i feel lighter and thinner... hahaha... lol...no ballet tomorrow.. 2 weeks no class oredi.. i want class.. i want to dance.. i want ballet.. mon no claz too.. 04 dec thurs.. arrive quickly.. ballet ballet ballet... the oni thing i am looking forward to for next week..next week is going to be a tedious week for me.. i need to go for the midnight shoot for the last episode of IT6 on wed-fri.. 2230H to 0530H.. and i am to start doing locations recee in the day for P&T6 next week too... so i m basically going to work almost 24hrs a day.. and on top of that is my ballet class.. wow... i will be super dead tired.. i muz try to find all my locations for the 1st 6 episodes of P&T6 within a week.. so that i can go for my taiwan trip happily without any worries about work.. difficult task but have to do it...i will be back to blog later.. need to log off and do some other stuff rite now.. tons of paper work and callings to do for next week shoot.. and importantly.. i need to look for food now.. have not had anything since morning.. by the way it is 1420H now..
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Thursday, November 27, 2008
at home right now but going out soon.. meeting jamie to collect my contact lenses and to paz the dvds to joey and i promised jacob to lend him my psp till this weekend.. so i will be without my psp for a few days... sighhhh....reception juz called and said someone has left a package for me.. good... so all my back-up discs are ready.. alot of shows in there... well.. i should reali thank fariz for all the efforts...it has been more than 10 days and i have not receive my dance arches.. will have to call australia if i dun receive them by tomorrow 12pm... mentioning about dance arches make me miss ballet classes more... sighhh....yesterday was alot of "missed"... missed 2nd, 3rd and 2 times of 4th.. sob sob.... today cannot "miss" anything at all... muz have everything...
today is oredi the 27th.. 3 more days!!! and i will be dead soon... die of stress!!! i need miracles to happen.. i need God's continuous blessings... help me oh Lord to trust in You to provide at a time like that.. help me oh Lord to believe that You are God who leads and guide.. Thank you Lord...wow... i am hungry!!! need my lunch but there is no food at home... so tired of thinking wat to eat everyday... i tink i better go and cook maggie mee now.. very hungry!!!
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Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Juz came back from the last recee for Incredible Tales 6.. The final one.. All my locations are settled!!! Thank God the company that i found so last minute has agreed to our filming request.. Thank God too for the house owner who has also agreed to waive off the location fees for tomorrow's filming.. i pray that the towing company will still charge us at $50/hr for our next week's filming now that the hours are cut to almost 10% of the original plan..Oki now that IT6's filming is almost ending (next week) i have to start concentrating on Police & Thief 6.. i juz got the master rundown for the 05 episodes that are oredi confirmed.. Some challenging locations to find.. But i know that my God will guide and lead me.. Juz like the song that i am listening to right now - GOD WILL MAKE A WAY!!!Oh yes!!! Guess what guess what??? Hahaha...
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Hee.. i strike toto yesterday!!! Not alot of money ~ $120.. But i still want to Thank God for His continuous blessings.. Oh Lord.. Please continue to bless me (in every ways).. i need much much more money than this.. Sighhhh... i think i am juz being very greedy.. Oh no no no... i think i really really need alot alot of money... Dun want to think of how much money i need right now coz' it will be veri scary...
Sob sob... i have tons of works to do before i can go home today... All left from what i was suppozed to do yesterday and on top of that are what i have to do today.. Sighhhhh......
Yesterday's TO-DO List :~ locations feedback forms for this week's filming
(after keying in the 1st location, i stopped)
~ get next week's callsheet from Pauline
(tried getting but Pauline is still working on them)
~ call locations and facilities owner for these 2 weeks filming
(oni called one owner and i oni did it at about 3pm earlier)
~ clear advance cash payment with Poh Choo
(Not done)
~ compile a list of all locations and facilities sponsors for IT6
(Not touched : Dun feel like doing at all)
~ check with Sharon/Siyi about the transport invoice for 16 Oct
(oki.. at least i did this yesterday.. hahaha...)
~ read all the 06 scripts for Police & Thiefs 6
(erm... i read episode 01 juz now and that's all i managed..)
~ get synopsis for P&T6 from Ming Miin
(well she seems too busy for me.. aiyah.. excuses for myself!!!)
~ do locations and facilities breakdown for the 06 episodes
(hee.. didn't even read the scripts so how will haf breakdown??)
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~ alot more in the list (too many stuff to do)...
Today's add on TO-DO List :
~ Email Pfizer Global Manufacturing
~ Email Yao Ching of Estate~ Check with Adeline about the said lift lobby for filming~ Get a German Shepherd for filming~ Inform Poh Choo about paying a token for the dog owner~ Compile the total hrs & amt i spent on transport for recee~ IT6 File~ ASN's Calendar 03-08~ Call Starhub for back-up DVDs~ Check on the status of Dance Arches~ ... ... ... ... ... ...~ ... ... ... ... ... ...~ more in the list (but can't complete so not listing anymore) Oki with all these works that I have to do i think i will never recover from my sickness.. Too stress... Sighhhh.....Got to go now... Will update soon...
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Monday, November 24, 2008
First of all.. I want to THANK GOD for blessing me with some small fortune.. Yeap!!! I won 4D!!! Hahaha... Not alot - juz $120... It was really a blessing!!! I bought it so last minute... I was on the way to meet Joey and Aixi ahyi when I suddenly thought of buying the nos. 3838 and so I got Aili ahyi to help me buy... That was at about 10+am yesterday but it was only at about 4+pm near 5pm that Aili ahyi told me the nos. were sold out, that I have to get somebody else to buy for me... (See.. Why I say is last minute because the sales of 4D closes at about 5pm)...You know what... I bought toto today too!!! Oh.. Let me win lotz and lotz of money... I need to pay for alot of stuff - ballet fees, debts, bills, bills and many many more bills... If I have lotz of money.. I can treat my grands, aunts and cousins to a trip and I can purchase the Feng Fei Fei's concert ticket for mom... I can also pay for other trips that I have always wanted to go for, but didn't because I have NO money... Especially now that some people are not returning me my $2600 and $73000... I promise myself that I will not trust anyone (except my family members, people who had helped me before when I am in need and my very close friends - Susan, Qiuhua, Ms. Kee, Fann, Prasad, Jamie, Vivienne, Vanessa and some selective ballet friends) when it comes to money... Sighhh....Secondly.. I juz spoke to Ming Miin about the new project - Police & Thief 6 (final season).. We had came to agreement for certain stuff but some are still hanging.. But salary is settled (It still remains the same as my current project - Incredible Tales 6).. Sob Sob.... I thought I can ask for more.. But well thank God... I will still earn more doing P&T than IT coz' there are 7 episodes more.. Erm... Letz see how much more..IT6-03 months ($??? x 05 eps + $??? x 01 eps + $??? x 01 hp = $????)P&T6-03 months($??? x 10 eps + $??? x 03 eps + $?? x 03 hp = $????)The difference I will get from the 2 projects ($???? - $???? = $4150)Wow.... The amount I am getting for P&T6 looks way much better... More reasonable!!!I have also told Ming Miin that I am going away to Taiwan with granny from 13th-20th Dec... She did not give me a straight answer of approval but instead said that the company supports family doing stuff together so shouldn't be a problem but needs to speak to EP about it.. I juz have to pray that EP will not says NO coz' if so, I will have to give up doing P&T6, which is good money!!! And worst... I will be jobless and will have to start looking for new projects outside MediaCorp.. Oh... I don't want to... I am very comfortable with my current table..I have collected the scripts for 06 episodes (Episode 01, 02, 03, 07, 09 & 12) and is still waiting for the rest... Though all these scripts had not being punch out, I am suppose to start working on them.. Yap... I am in the office now.. Not reading the scripts that I have juz gotten but blogging away.. Hahaha... Obviously...Thirdly... I think I have not fully recover from my sickness... It has been about a week since I was at the hospital... (Was at the hospital last Tuesday coz' I was suddenly breathless, heart palpitating fast, pins & needles on both legs and arms, giddy and dizzy)... I am still feeling all of the above symptoms except that I am not giddy or dizzy... I am going to visit a specialist at the Changi Hospital on 01 December.. Dun even know if I can survive till then or not.. Actually I am kind of scared now coz' David and Eugene juz told me that the symptoms sounds like having Diabetes and Aimei ahyi said the same thing yesterday...Fourthly, Fifthly and so on... Is oredi 1530H... I have better to stop blogging and start doing the following :~ locations feedback forms for this week's filming~ get next week's callsheet from Pauline~ call locations and facilities owner for these 2 weeks filming~ clear advance cash payment with Poh Choo~ compile a list of all locations and facilities sponsors for IT6~ check with Sharon/Siyi about the transport invoice for 16 Oct~ read all the 06 scripts for Police & Thiefs 6~ get synopsis for P&T6 from Ming Miin~ do locations and facilities breakdown for the 06 episodes~ ... ... ... ... ... ...~ ... ... ... ... ... ...~ alot more in the list (too many stuff to do)...So I better get going NOW!!!!!!Opps.....Lastly... Oh Lord.. Please continue to bless me in every ways...
* Live ♥ Love ♥ DANCE *
Saturday, November 22, 2008
TODAY : HAPPY BIRTHDAY - Auntie Elsie
(may you have a wonderful day & year ahead.. Many blessings..)TODAY : another day without ballet!!!(and there's no ballet class tml to look forward to)TODAY : went to collect contact lenses with jamie
(was in the shop for a few hours coz' jamie can't get the lenses in)TODAY : finally got news about the new project from Ming Miin
(i hope the talk on Monday will be good for me - pay wise & taiwan trip)TODAY : i am at granny's house(have not been here for awhile oredi)TODAY : i bought 4D
(so hope will win alot alot of money then can enjoy in taiwan)TODAY : is just going to be another dayHahaha... Crapping randomly....
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Tuesday, November 18, 2008
i am feeling so down.. so miserable.. so terrible.. so horrible.. so really down.. crying alot...
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Wednesday, November 12, 2008
wow... raining the whole of today... i like the rain but a bit inconvenient with the weather.. i was not able to recee for private houses coz' i can't get down the vehicle... sighhhh....oh.. actuali it stop raining for awhile (i think was about 10-15mins) when i was at lim chu kang road (where the cemetary is) doing my recee for the long stretch of road for episode 05.. i think it stop raining a bit den coz' my daddy thinks i am so near him and wants me to go and pay my respect to him... yap.. daddy is burried at the christian cemetary at lim chu kang road..it has been awhile since i went and pay my respect to daddy.. i reali miss him and i reali am.. i spent about 10mins at his grave before it drizzle and i have to go.. (continue with my recee of the "so difficult" to find "peranakan type" of house).. went many many places to hunt for the house, but still to no avail... i am very stress with this house... two more days to confirm the locations but NO house on hand... die diz time.. sure get it from poh choo and rajen.. die die die...still no news from either of the mentioned (yesterday)... uncle kenneth.. u promised to help... no calls or message from you till now... does it mean you are not helping out anymore??? how about the rest of you??? i am so sad that all of you are simply ignoring me...got a small warning from ms kee earlier diz afternoon.. she wants me to practise and train hard for ballet and dance well for all my exercises tomorrow.. if not she will not teach me anymore... sighhhhh...... i did leh... and i did voice out that i danced very hard on monday and though she agrees with me but was still stern in the warning... i tink i better go and practise in awhile and tomorrow morning... i also better reach earlier for ballet tomorrow... i dun wan her to give up on me like how she gives up on certain people... i am scared... very...oki..tomorrow will be a better day...much better day... cheers.....
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Tuesday, November 11, 2008
i am in tears rite now... feeling stress coz there are certain things i cannot solve and is oredi very desperate for help to arrive to solve the problems... (i reali wan to thank david who has lend me a helping hand in such a situation and you know how appreciative i am towards your help, even though is still a long way to go before i can settle all this problems)i am still waiting for good news from you people - uncle kenneth, uncle robert, han thon, adam, olinda and eelyn... though i know chances are slim but reali praying that you all will say yes...my eyes are reali heavy and tired.. is it coz i am crying too much or is it that i juz need a good night sleep... well... no matter wat... i shall be sleeping soon... and i reali mean soon...good night...
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Saturday, November 08, 2008
hey yo... i am back to blog again for the 2nd time today... hee...
juz reach home not long ago... met up with jamie and her mom and went to singapore dance theatre then after that a nice dinner...
jamie had a make-up course for the nutcracker performance earlier at sdt and i was there to collect the ticket for chew yen.. jamie's mom accompanied her there... we were early and saw ms ong long's class going on.. i think they are doing advance 2 or maybe free class... the work don't look familiar to me... there is this girl who has very very nice arches but she doesn't have turn out... but still very good...
we had dinner at swensens plaza singapura.. jamie's mom paid for the dinner.. oh.. and because of one of my remarks to the manager of the restaurant, we got a bowl of soup of the day on the house... that's not my point.. the silly manager didn't even know why i commend about the service.. he should go and think about his mistake... oh yes... thank you auntie for the meal.. (",)
and juz now in the train on the way to sdt, auntie was telling me about their trip to genting... erm... didn't i juz wrote about my wish to go genting with people like jamie??? and straight after that, the topic came up.. does that mean my wish is to come true soon????
actually i would have posted this post maybe 20 mins ago but i was distracted in killing a lizard that came into my room.. i hate lizards... i am scared of them.. i hate cold-blooded stuff... oh my gosh... even writing about this makes my hair stands... arrrgggg.....
oki... better start doing my locations feedback forms for monday's and tuesday's filming... if not i will have to wake up very early tomorrow....
oki.. nite everyone...
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wow... saturday liao... days past too quickly.. in the blink of an eye.. is oredi coming to the end of the year.. oh that is scary!!!
nothing much to update juz alot alot of wishes before the end of the year arrives..WISHES :
(01) have alot alot of money (strike lucky draws and lottery - hahahaha)
(02) No agruements with family members and friends
(03) SLIM down by 10kg - wohahaha... LOL...
(04) clear my mess (alot leh... dunno pozible or not)
(05) get a job that i have little to do but yet pay alot (hee.. if have must quickly inform me oki...)(06) a trip to genting with people i want to go with and have lotz and lotz of fun (jamie, bella - wanna go???)
(07) able to do pirouettes on pointe well...
i pray for the above ~ let my wishes come true...
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Friday, November 07, 2008
Dun know why i have been singing this song these few days.. Maybe I am so desperate for miracles to happen...THERE CAN BE MIRACLES[Miriam]
Many nights we've prayed
with no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understood
Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains
Long before we ever knew we could
There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe
[Tzipporah]
In this time of fear
When prayer so often proved in vain
Hope seemed like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away
Yet now I'm standing here
With heart so full I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say
[Miriam and Tzipporah]
There can be miracles when you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe...
[Hebrew Children]A-shi-ra la-do-nai ki ga-oh ga-ah
(I will sing to the Lord, for he has triumphed gloriously)
A-shi-ra la-do-nai ki ga-oh ga-ah
(I will sing to the Lord, for he has triumphed gloriously)
Mi-cha-mo-cha ba-elim adonai
(Who is like You, oh Lord, among the celestial)
Mi-ka-mo-cha ne-dar- ba-ko-desh(Who is like You, majestic in holiness)
Na-chi-tah v'-chas-d'-cha am zu ga-al-ta
(In Your love, You lead the people You redeemed)
Na-chi-tah v'-chas-d'-cha am zu ga-al-ta
(In Your love, You lead the people You redeemed)
A-shi-ra, a-shi-ra, a-shi-ra...(I will sing, I will sing, I will sing)[Hebrews]
There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
Now you will
You will when you believe
[Miriam and Tzipporah]You will when you believe
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i am going crazy... when can i settle all these... i really cannot take all these anymore... i want all these troubles settled asap...oh... how come you are not helping me??? please please please... i am really going crazy oredi....
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Thursday, November 06, 2008
me at home means didn't go work again... hee...i was juz reding jamie's blog lor and really envious of her yeah.. will be dancing on stage soon... i miss my performance days... used to perform so much on stage then suddenly everything changes as i grow... isn't life miserable...well.. juz glad that i can still dance now... coz if one day if i ever have to stop dancing, i think i will go crazy and i will rather die... dancing is juz like my life.. my motivation and my stimulaizer... i think i am like on drug.. hahaha... sounds so wrong...today is oredi thursday and i need to settle all my stuff by tomorrow... how is it pozzible???? i doubt myself and i doubt anyone can help... sob sob... i juz pray for God's grace and mercy and i believe there can be miracles... (i dun know y this song kept ringing in my mind)..
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Wednesday, November 05, 2008
This is my prayer today...Oh Lord, You know my needs even before I ask You.. Please bless me and let me go through this... I really pray that everything can be settled by Friday and I need not worry anymore and will not let this happen again...Please hear my prayer and please answer my prayer oh Lord... I know You love me and will not allow me to sin... Be with me Lord, so I can go through all this..Thank you oh Lord for listening to my prayer...Your miserable and desperate child..
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Tuesday, November 04, 2008
i m very tired.. slept only at about 4am and woke up at 830am... is at home now.. didn't even bother to go to work...had ballet yesterday and got quite angry with myself... really do not know what happen to me coz' i don't seems to be able to dance well lately... cannot do pirouettes at all... my best exercises are from pirouettes and yet i can't turn... also means i can't dance..... really ANGRY with myself ah....i m very very broke and have to pay for lotz and lotz of stuff... can i have my money back... my $75600... when r u going to return me the money... i trusted you but yet you cheated me... return me my money soon... the amount of money is all i have so please return me...alot of stuff awaiting me to complete by this week... 
Oh Lord... I pray for strength and i pray for your blessings...
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Sunday, November 02, 2008
Wow... It has been a long time since I blog and yes, I finally manage to change my blogskin and all... Well... Juz a quick update of myself...Had been very very busy with life ~ work, dance, etc...Right now, I am struggling with some other issues and really hope these issues can be solved asap... Really praying for some miracles to happen...Oh yes... I am finally going away on holiday this December... Will be flying to Taiwan, though is not really a country I would like to visit, but since my grandmama wants to go, i shall accompany her... You know, I seriously do not know how many more years can I spend with her... We are all getting old...Erm... Dance... have a new classmate today again!!!! I don't really like it coz' we have to slow down the class so that she can catch up... I hope this is going to be the last new girl... (though I know that is not what Ms. kee wish for lah... Since each student means more income for her...) But seriously hope this girl can catch up soon so we can proceed faster in class...Having my Advance 1 class tomorrow... had not been dancing properly these few weeks... I hope tomorrow is going to be much better... Better barre work, better centre practise, better pirouettes, better allegro, better adages and better pointe work... Basically, better in everything... hahaha....Oki, got to stop here... Going to tag you all to relink me.. Hee....
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